walking until the coffee smell faded, until my lungs felt full of winter, until my eyes stopped stinging.
I was terrified.
But beneath the fear, something else lived.
Resolve.
The apartment hunt was brutal.
I spent lunch breaks refreshing listings, fingers sticky with stress, eyes scanning for numbers I could afford. Every evening after work, I sat on my sofa with my laptop and a notebook, writing down addresses, calculating commute times, comparing rent to my paycheck like I could force the universe to be reasonable.
The neighborhoods I could